Workin’ Mama.

I took being a stay at home mom for granted. I could come and go as I pleased, I had enough time to keep the house in order, to keep the kitchen well stocked, dinner made, the toddler entertained. Not so much these days. I always feel as though my head is just barely above water, and that there are a lot of things that are being neglected. It’s either a clean house or a happy kid. It’s making a cup of coffee instead of prepping dinner so I don’t fall asleep at 6pm. It’s being content with a messy house and embracing the fact that things are a little disorganized right now and probably will be for a while.

…And then there’s the guilt. Letting someone else have my kid for the majority of the day. I feel so incredibly guilty that I don’t get to be the one to spend the day with him.I know he is happy hanging out with his buddy (He is watched by one of my close friends who has a son very close in age) and I know it’s good for him to socialize, but I just can’t get over the guilt of not being there for him all the time. I don’t feel like I am doing anything ‘well’ right now. I feel like I am half-assing it at being a mom, half-assing it at work, half-assing it at being a wife. Especially with all of Sam’s heath issues right now. (He is getting over a double ear infection, a sinus infection AND a horrible case of the croup. He’s on antibiotics and had some steroids so things are shaping up!)

It doesn’t help when people say things like “Oh wow, I don’t know how you do that. I could *never* do that. I’d miss my kid too much.” or “I don’t want someone else raising my child for me”. And to an extent, I can agree. I didn’t think I “could” do that. But hey, you learn to do what you have to do when you run out of other options. It really stings when people say things like that, I already feel guilty enough about missing milestones, new words and fun new skills. And part of me just feels sorry for myself for having to be at work around 6am every day, which means getting up before the crack of dawn, being in a rush whenever I am at home and not spending as much quality time with him as I should/want to.

But right now I am just trying to focus on the “Be thankful” part. Being thankful we can pay our rent, that we have reliable cars, that we can buy groceries and clothing, that we have good health insurance. I am trying to be thankful, even though that means my floors don’t get vacuumed and the dishes sit in the sink for a few days. I have to remind myself that there’s only 24 hrs in a day, and at least six of those need to be sleeping hours. Do you know how hard it is to try to go to bed at a reasonable hour when you’re married to a night owl and he’s been successfully pushing back your bedtime for the last 3.5 yrs?

Any other working mama’s out there that can share some advice? Or even just words of encouragement would be more than welcome!

I’ll be back to your regularly scheduled knitting posts just as soon as a certain somebody in California (cough, cough MARY cough, cough) receives their package, then I can show you the contents that I made for baby Hugh!

And yes, I used the word “ass” three times in this post. Can you believe it?

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Avacado? I don’t think so.

On our mission trying to fatten Samuel up we’ve been trying some ‘fatty’ foods, including avacado. I thought he would like it…but apparently he did not. He had a rather violent reaction to it and about 30 seconds after this video ended he promptly threw it all up. It was rather disgusting! If you are short on time, I’d skip to about the 35 second mark, that’s where things really get good.

Since he didn’t react well to the avacado, we’ve since tried mixing it with applesauce and oatmeal, but it’s still a no-go. Although he does seem to really like the coconut oil mixed in with his carrots and sweet potatoes! I tasted them and they are TASTY! Mmm mmm mmm!

Also, can I just share my excitement for a moment?  I got myself a mom-mobile! (Aka Dodge Caravan)

I’m so excited. And this could not come at a better time, because I am now babysitting a 9 month old girl 3 days a week, and let me tell you, trying to get anywhere with two carseats in my TINY two door car…well, that just wasn’t working very well at all. I’m so excited about my new minivan. I know a lot of people don’t dig the mini-vans, but I totally love them! So spacious! So nice for hauling babies!

Did anyone get any mean tricks played on them yesterday? Paul knows better than to try to play and pranks on me! I don’t respond well to pranks.

And in other news, if you haven’t done so already, click on the link on the top left hand side and “Like” Knittybutton on Facebook! As soon as we get to 100 likes I’ll be holding a giveaway over on the Facebook page!

My Boys!

Due to there being a lot of snow this week, we spent a lot of time just hanging out at home. Sam enjoyed getting his parents undivided attention.

Sam sure does make some entertaining faces!

I love seeing Sam play with his dad, it’s so great to see how much they love each other.

Sam was watching a football game from up there on his little perch on dad’s head. He loves sitting way up high!

He also likes to use his dads wrist as a teething toy. Yum.

This kid makes the best faces, right?

Just wanted to show off some pictures of my boys, I got pretty lucky, right?

Under The Weather

So, I’m still not feeling great, so I am taking a “sick day” from the blog. Just wanted to update it, because whenever I am late with a post everyone seems to think I’m in labor. So, sorry there’s nothing new, but maybe check out some of the links to other blogs in my sidebar. There’s lots of fun crafty things to check out there!

Procrastination by Blogging.

So I am procrastinating on all of the things I need to do today, like go to the grocery store, finish the dishes, fold my laundry, and  clean the living room by blogging. I don’t even really have much to say today, except for the fact that I’ve got this long list of things that need to be done and I just don’t want to do them right now, because I am being lazy and would rather watch old reruns of TV shows on my computer than get off my rear-end and actually do a little work around the house.That sink is calling to me, but I am ignoring it for now to say hello to all you guys out there.

In baby news, I felt the baby move for the first time and that was really exciting. Paul can’t feel it yet, but I am sure that it won’t be too long before he can. I’ve started having Braxton Hicks contractions and it’s not a lot of fun, kind of painful and crampy. The only time they’ve been happening is during/after a long shift at work when I’ve been standing for 7-8 hours, and as long as I am not on my feet for that long they don’t bother me, so I quit my job, (more time to knit, right?)  my last day is on Saturday. I feel like such a loser, getting them to hire me and then quitting on them 3 months later. Whoops? Sorry dudes. But the Nurse Practitioner at my OB’s office said it was probably a good idea to take it easy, especially since my pregnancy has been somewhat turbulent so far. Oh, and sorry for no 18 week picture yet, maybe later in the week when I am feeling put together or something? And when there is a clean spot in my house to take a picture in? Or maybe on a day when I remember to put makeup on. Yes, that will be it. I’ll take a picture tomorrow, since I need to actually look presentable for a social event anyway.

Ok, well, the kitchen has reached a state of disaster (meaning I want to go get a glass of grape juice, but we have no clean cups, so I actually gotta go do something about this situation.) Happy Tuesday, ya’ll.

Happy February.

I, for one, am glad that January is done. January is usually the most dull month (at least for me) , and while some exciting things have happened so far in the new year (obviously) I am always ready to move on. So, Happy February. I’m sort of halfheartedly looking for a job, and I’ve got a few prospects (and a second interview tomorrow) but it’s nothing that I’m super psyched about, but I think it’d be good for me to do something and keep myself busy until the baby comes, otherwise I’m likely to go crazy, especially since orders have dropped off a lot since the holidays.

Since I have nothing crafty to show you, I will just show you pictures from the wedding I was in last weekend. It was truly lovely, and I was so blessed to be a part of such a wonderful event.

 

Delurking.


I know I missed the “National Delurking Day” (I think it’s sometime in January?) But my curiosity is getting the best of me, so I thought to myself, why not just ask my readers to let me know who they are? *

I know there are the faithful few who leave me comments, (Thanks, Mom!) but there are a lot of you whom I don’t know. So come on, here’s your chance to say hello! I promise if you let me know who you are, I’ll visit your blog (and comment!), too!

*Your regularly scheduled crafting posts will resume tomorrow.

 

Living in a small town.

Moscow is not a big place.

There she is, in all her patchwork glory.

Today, I got off work early, and needed to go to the Post Office to mail off the Giveaway package. It was so lovely out that I decided to open up every window in the house (except for the one in the living room, which is stuck shut and only Paul can open.) The post office is very close to our apartment, a walk that should have taken only 4-5 minutes, however, living in a small town, that walk took 15 minutes. Why, you ask? Because only nearly every block I ran into someone that I knew, and had a good chat. There is something nice about running into people you know, pretty much everywhere you go. It’s a great way to keep up fellowship with fellow church members.

After I left the post office, I didn’t want to go home to an empty house, so I decided to take a walk. Street musicians greeted me downtown, the sun shining brightly through the branches of the trees. I stopped and got some coffee, settled down to read my book in Friendship Square, (The Zoo Keeper’s Wife, very good. An incredible true story from the Holocaust.) but never got more than a a few pages through my book without someone stopping to say hello.

The Saturday Farmer’s market is the highlight of Moscow’s small downtown district, with fresh produce, art, craft vendors, lots of food, live musicians and crowds of people to watch. Moscow also provides some amazing people watching. We have a lot of… for lack of a better term, hippies. The dread-locked, hemp clothed, “Don’t Pave Paradise” bumper stickered people. Those, co-mingled with the sorority girls and frat boys, makes for an interesting combination of people, coexisting in a small town.

I wasn’t sure that I’d like living in such a small town, but now I realize that it’s this kind of small community that I thrive on, and it may be a harder adjustment moving to a bigger city when that time comes. You should all come visit me out here and see how pleasant living in a small town can be. (That means you, Hilary!)

It still feels like Monday.

Aren’t they cute? My darling husband got them for my for Valentine’s Day. And brown and pink! What more could a girl ask for?

Want a sneak peek at what I am making for Ez-pez?

It’s a really fun yarn to work with. Once you go wool, you never go back.

Time for dinner- beef stroganoff tonight. Planning a giveaway this week, so keep your eyes peeled. (gross.)

Happy Tuesday.

Failed Blogger

I could go on an on about how terrible of a blogger I am, but I won’t, because you’ve heard it all before from me.

Been working on a few little things here and there. Mailing out a little present to my nephew, I’ll post a picture once they get it in the mail, don’t want to ruin the suprise. Most of my energy has been being used in a better way lately than blogging. Getting healthy! We’ve had a sick household for the past week and a half and we are just now getting to being more than just bumps on the couch. But since we’ve had so much time to chill, we’ve caught up on our favorite TV shows and movies, and actually gotten to spend alot of time just hanging out with each other.

We have a concert this weekend, so thank goodness we’re finally feeling better! The Anymore will be performing live at the NuArt Theatre here in Moscow, 7:00pm Saturday! Yep, my husband was nice enough to let me into his band, first as a backup singer, but now I’ve got 3 or 4 songs I’m actually singin’ solo! So, it should be pretty fun! We did a small show last weekend in Pullman, but apart from that I haven’t really performed in front of anyone since college, so I’m a little nervous. Luckily, Autumn and her sisters are coming all the way out here to wish me luck and cheer me on.

I’ll try to be a better blogger, I swears it.